20 week sonogram

Today was my 20 week sonogram. They had me drink a bunch of water before my appointment to make sure that they could get a good view of the baby. But then they had me wait a long time and waiting with a full bladder is no fun. Finally they took us back and all bladder pain was forgotten when I saw my little baby on the screen.

She made us doubt our sureness that it was a boy by saying that they aren't always right at 13 weeks and that its really too early to tell. But she quickly confirmed that they were correct and we are expecting a bouncing baby boy!

He was so adorable already! I know he's no where near ready but he looked so perfect. I could make out his face and hands and feet. He kept rubbing his eyes. He must have been tired! And he was curled up into a little ball, most of the Tim with his feet by his head. He is already taking on some of his brothers gestures. He had his feet crossed at the ankles. Such a cutie!

After the sonogram we met with our doctor and she told us that the sonogram pictures were gorgeous and that things couldn't look more perfect! She said all of his organs looked great and his spinal cord and even my placenta was in a great spot! I am so thankful that he is growing so well and looking so healthy!!

Mom on the other hand is still having a hard time. I'm so sorry I didn't blog last week. I have been so sick and still don't feel great. I was out of work for 2.5 days with a stomach bug and now I think I've possibly developed IBS (irritable bowl syndrome). This is just a self diagnosis so far but I think 10 days of stomach issues and severe pain is too long for a stomach bug everyone else had for 24 hours. But I won't get into anymore detail because its just all TMI.

Today was the school shooting in CT. I was so shocked and sad when I heard about it and as details kept coming out. Being pregnant and hormonal and having a small child just really made it worse. I can't help but keep being horrified at how the parents must be feeling at this exact moment. How innocent those babies were and how scared they must have been. How there are empty beds tonight and christmas presents under trees never to be opened. I just cried and cried. Tried to imagine just how absolutely devastated I would be if I lost Colin. Especially in such a tragic way and knowing he went so scared. This will be a day that you never forget. Because something just unfathomable and terrible has happened. I'm racking up too many of those days in my lifetime and I'm only 29. I'm scared to see what other horrifying days lie ahead for all of us in our lifetimes. The things we will witness. All I can do for now is thank The Lord that Colin is sleeping soundly in his bed tonight and dreaming of Thomas the train and lightning McQueen.